All Grown Up

Daily Prompt: All Grown Up

When was the first time you really felt like a grown up (if ever)?

Honestly, I still don’t feel grown up. This is a general feeling I get whenever I get to see friends my age and how they’re already leading lives full of responsibility and security (or at least trying to achieve security). I’m not jealous or anything. But sometimes I do feel guilty and hesitant that maybe the life I’m leading now will bite me in the future. No regrets, though.

I did, however, feel grown up the first time I ever received my first credit card statement.
I thought to my self: “So this is when it all begins.”
The small freedom you get to acquire what you want but needing to be responsible enough to control yourself to not go overboard.

I failed. Big time.

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Mentor Me

Daily Prompt: Mentor Me

Have you ever had a mentor? What was the greatest lesson you learned from him or her?

In my twenty-six years of existence, I cannot think of one person that struck to be a mentor to me. Well, not one that I can say that directly and officially guided me.
This may be because I’m stubborn.
I hate being told what to do and what to think or what to believe in.
I tend to question everything and over think things.
So no one would also probably own up to being my mentor.

I do, however, have some people in mind that had taught me lessons and left impressions that have helped me in the path of life.

One person is my mom.
When I was in college, I got to be independent.
I was already living alone at the other side of the country.
During this time, I had been in situations where I had to make decisions and choices that greatly affected my life and future. And every time I would ask my mom for her guidance.
And every time she would give an opinion but at the end close it with:
“You know what’s best for you.”

At first I hated these seven words.
I wanted to scream and say:
“That’s just it! I don’t know what’s best for me!”

Being independent is exhausting.
And knowing you get to live with the consequences and possible regret is nerve-racking.
Sometimes I wished that somebody would just make the decisions for me.
So I have someone to blame if things don’t turn out the way I planned.

Years later, I realized how lucky I was for having such a mother.
I finally saw and understood how these words affected me and helped me to grow.
It made me know how to think and decide for myself, have the guts to follow through every choice and live with little or no regret at all.

My mom was right.
Whatever other people may say the right path or good choice one should take, at the end of the day, we will be the ones to get to live with those decisions. So we should be the one to know what things we could live with or without.

Now, unconsciously, I find myself using these exact words when people ask me for advice.
And come to think of it, maybe this is one of the reasons why I don’t think I have (or need) a mentor. Because my mother have taught me to guide my self.

Makes sense? I don’t know.

Proud

Daily Prompt: Proud

When was the last time someone told you they were proud of you?

Wow. This got me thinking really hard.
I suddenly realized that I take a lot of things for granted.
One thing is accepting compliments like people saying they’re proud of me.

Lately, I do remember most people are saying how they were proud of me that I crossed an item of my bucket list. Well, some of them didn’t even know I had a list but most people who know me knows that this was something I really wanted to do. And this is to be involved with musical theater.

Last year, I took the first (scary) steps.
I joined theater workshops.

Again, if you know me, you would know that:
– I am scared of the stage
– I hate public speaking
– I am a big introvert!

So imagine what the first few days of workshop were for me!
Little did I know that my fear would be overthrown by my passion for theater.
Getting to sing, perform on stage, and work with people as passionate as I am trumped all doubts I had.

My first summer workshop was the best summer I had in years!
It was so surreal that we couldn’t let go of each other even after months after the workshop.

Teachers were so inspiring.
Classmates were so helpful and supportive.

Getting to share with my friends and family the experience through the final showcase was doubly rewarding. And I am glad that even for those who weren’t able to go but have seen the pictures, messaged me to say that they were proud of me.

I am, too.

Here are some photos of the workshops I’ve attended.

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Whoa!

Daily Prompt: Whoa!

What’s the most surreal experience you’ve ever had?

One thing you should know about me is I am a drama queen (hence, the blog name).
I always have excessive emotional reactions to almost everything.
I get amazed easily. So imagine the experiences I had that count as surreal for me.
I cannot even categorize them anymore because I can be pleased very easily, especially when it comes to things I am passionate about.

So instead of talking about the most surreal experiences, I will be listing every surreal experience I can remember that left me in awe and still kept me wondering if it really actually happened.

1. Getting to see in the flesh the people I admire so much.

  • Lin Manuel Miranda

0900c0006f7a11e181bd12313817987b_7 Oh yes! He sat just rows behind us in the opening night of In the Heights Manila Rerun. Just knowing we were in the same timezone was already surreal for me, let alone being in the same room with him. Add to this that I get to see him so proud of the Manila cast for giving justice to his work was so touching. I just never got the nerve to approach him, though. But I have no regrets. Seeing him happy and proud was doubly enough.

  • Miley Cyrus

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Okay. You got me! I am a Miley fan. I’ve been a fan since her Hannah Montana days. Not only is she a great comedian, she really is a good performer. I don’t know what it is but I like her energy when performing. And, I was so lucky to have seen her perform live here in Manila! I was not disappointed. In fact, I became a fan even more.

  • Our Vocal Teacher and Musical Director for Voice

There’s this local theater actor that I have grown to admire so much because he’s so talented (and cute. haha). I have seen him in a couple plays and every time he amazes me. One summer, I’ve gotten the chance to meet him and be his student for a workshop. And, oh my gosh! The whole summer was surreal. Just getting to see him would’ve been enough. But working with and learning from him is too much. I was in cloud nine the entire time. Basking in the air of genius is sort of wonderful.

2. Seeing my favorite musicals!

I am one big musical theater addict. One dream of mine is to actually be able to see a play in Broadway or West End. But for the meantime, I make do with watching local and touring productions (not that I’m saying that they’re no good because they really are amazing!). Some of these shows, I even had to fly to Singapore just to see them. My most surreal musical theater experiences were actually Wicked, Lion King, Chicago, and Phantom of the Opera.


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3. Visiting famous landmarks and tourist spots.

Travelling is one activity that you cannot replace or even describe in pictures and words the feeling of actually being there. No amount of words and photos can really fill the amazement and majesty of these iconic landmarks. These are just some of the places and things that left me in awe during my travels.

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Petronas Towers in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

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Amazing coffee in Vietnam!

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Reclining Buddha in Bangkok, Thailand

Teachable Moment

Daily Prompt: Teachable Moment

You have to learn a new skill. Do you prefer to read about it, watch someone else do it, hear someone describe it, or try it yourself?

I have always believed that experience is the best teacher.
And this has been proven true to me at learning new skills.

Watching someone else do it or hear them describe it
never really registers as much actually doing it yourself.
Sure, you understand and get the whole concept of the skill
but you are never really convinced unless you try it out.

I have proven this with all the skills I had to learn over the years.

Riding a bike.
Playing the guitar.
Singing. Dancing.
And even at work.

You have to…
… fall down,
… have calloused fingers,
… be flat or sharp,
… endure body pain; and
… create your own f*cked up moments.

So you can truly say you’ve learned.

Memory Gap

Daily Prompt: Apply Yourself
Describe your last attempt to learn something that did not come easily to you.

— Hmm. The last attempt to learn something that did not come very easily to me was the last time I memorized the script and lyrics for a musical I’m in.

It is really one of my weakness: to memorize. I have never been the person to memorize words. This is why I see myself as a math/physics person, where I just understand theories and then manipulate or apply it to problems.

So I tried to use the same concept to memorizing the script and songs. First, understand the scene… and I did. But it was hard to use this understanding because I cannot ad lib. I must use the exact words. Plus, they are in deep Filipino, which I am never really confident with.

It was really hard but I got through it. But every time there is a new script and new song to learn, my fear of memorizing them precedes the fear of actually performing them.