Soda Diaries: 49 days

Oh yes. I’m way past my pledged no-soda day!
It’s been 4 days since I passed The Soda Challenge deadline and I still haven’t drank one drop.
It’s not that I don’t crave it. Because I really really do!

I am actually scared.
I am scared that once I start drinking again, I will be drowning myself with it yet again.

I am also scared for my kidneys now.
Just a month ago, I would’ve just brushed aside all health worries.
But hearing dialysis stories from friends (one friend has a sister that goes to dialysis twice a week indefinitely, and another friend who’s a nurse that’s assigned to help perform dialysis to patients), I got spooked… Because I know that that will be one possible future for me if I don’t control my soda drinking and don’t start drinking more water.

So what about my “No day but Today” mantra?
Okay. I am still living for the day. I believe so.
I don’t mean to not drink sodas ever.
Maybe now I should just add the mantra:
“Too much of one thing is bad.”
So everything should be in moderation.

Don’t hold yourself back.
Seize the day in moderation.
In this way, you can start living your present to the fullest but not being to dumb enough to acknowledge that the future is inevitable. Also, you’ll be able to seize every moment that the future present brings.

Confusing?
Such is life. 🙂

*sigh*

Hopefully the next soda diary entry will be about me getting to drink soda once again.
*fingers crossed*

Soda Diaries: The Challenge

Today’s Daily Prompt made me double think my addiction for sodas.
(See previous post)

I suddenly got scared that it might just get worse and my kidney will fail me soon.
Since I’m really having a hard time giving up on this habit,
the least I can do is minimize my craving for it.

Good thing yesterday was Ash Wednesday, which signifies the start of the season of Lent.
Every year I always choose one thing to abstain from doing for forty days as a penitence.

So this year, I choose to abstain from sodas (dark or otherwise).
I also use this challenge as an excuse to use the Milestone Widget (see the sidebar. :))
as a countdown tool until Easter Sunday when I can finally drink soda again!

Okay. So this is dropping the habit cold turkey.
But it’s just for forty days right?

Hopefully by the end of forty days, I will:
– save money
– fulfill one religious duty; and
– learn that I can live without drinking soda (too much)

I can do this.
Lord, help me.

Shoulda Woulda Coulda : Soda Diaries

Daily Prompt: Shoulda Woulda Coulda

Tell us about something you know you should do . . . but don’t.

I love sodas!
I love carbonated drinks.
I love them so much that I got into the habit of drinking at least one can per day.

I know that I should stop drinking too much of it.
I know it’s unhealthy.
I know it’s an added expense.

I do it anyway.

I love the dark sodas more, like Coke and Pepsi.
But I love the no-sugar versions most, like Coke Zero and Pepsi Max.
I don’t have an ultimate favorite between the two because sometimes my choice depends on my mood.

There are times when a meal feels incomplete without it.
There are times when I’m just craving it for no reason.
There are times when I would rather drink it than have something to eat.

I know it’s just a matter of time when my body will betray me and start reacting to all the soda I’m giving it.
But how? How do I stop?

I love sodas!